Yesterday, I had a conversation with my BFF, and we talked for like an hour about all the things that have been going on in and amongst our lives. These include:

-divorce
-trying to figure out new relationships
-trying to figure out how to not blame current significant others for the mistakes of past significant others
-money, and our gross lack of it
-abusive relationships, the reasons we justify staying in them, and how to get out of them
-relocating
-job loss
-eviction
-the point of spending $$$ on finishing school, when you know that what you are going to owe in loans in going to outweigh by far any more money you make by having it.

And then, she said something profound..."You know what sucks about all of this? It's being a grown up. This is what being an adult is about. One problem after another."

And you know what? She's right. I have come to realize that as soon as you solve one problem, another turns up. It's like a carousel. You keep going around and around and around, and maybe you ride a different horse each time, but you still end up back where you started and never seem to get anywhere.

Here's where we figured out things are different though. When you have someone in your life that you love, that you trust, that you feel comfortable with, and confident in their feelings back, it makes all that shit all little bit easier. I still have no money...but at least I have no money with him. I still have to deal with a job I hate, but at least I have him to come home to. My exes are still douches, but at least I am slowly learing that not ALL guys are. She is so lucky to have found her cowboy. I can only hope.

Things aren't perfect. Things are NEVER going to be perfect. Maybe alot of wrong turns and wrong choices got us to where we are right now, but at least I feel like we might be on the right road out, or at least with the right passengers.