Every day since the last week of July, I have either been with Stewart or spent hours talking to or texting with him.
I have woken up smiling each one of these days, and gone to bed equally and consistently happy. I haven't had to guess or wonder about how he felt. I haven't had to make excuses. It feels like I have received an amazing and totally unexpected blessing having him in my life.
I spent last weekend in El Paso and we had a wonderful time. We hung out with friends, we ate out, we watched movies, we talked...we just spent time together and it was great. I was especially glad to have been able to go because for the next 2 weeks he will be out in the Field doing testing and other Army stuff. He will be home for 2 days, and then he will be back out for another 3 weeks. This means little or no contact for almost 5 whole weeks.
This sucks.
I haven't talked to him since Monday morning, right before I left. We made a kind of big deal admission to each other...and then he left and I left and that's been it.
Even though we weren't physically together all the time, we were 'together' anyways. I miss that. It's been 3 days, and I miss him like crazy.
And, I realize that this is my first real taste of Army life. Things like this happen. He will have to do this about 2 times a year. If-God forbid- he gets deployed, I am looking at a year without him. It's one of those things I have to deal with, and I understand that and support him...but, I don't have to like it. And perhaps selfishly, I don't. I miss 'Good Morning' and I miss 'Good Night' . I know he has it alot worse than I do right now, sleeping either in a tent or in his truck and eating field rations...but I'd happily go and sleep in a tent too, if it meant we could be together ;)
I just can't wait for him to get back...
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