Well, there's this guy...
Isn't there always?
Anyway, there IS this guy. And I LIKE him. I have liked him for a long time. Years. But you know it was that kind of like that was "I would have a huge crush on you...if I wasn't already dating someone." Or "I have a huge crush on you, but you are already dating someone." The timing was shit every single time. But we've been friends all this time. Not besties by any means, but friends.
Last year, I thought the timing might be lining up. We went on what was sort of, maybe, kind of, maybe not, I don't have any clue...a date. And then we made plans to have dinner that were studded with him being out of town, and then me being out of town.. and time getting away from us, and me getting really sick, and him getting really sick, and then I was messing around with this other guy and months went by...and so here we are in June and I was just about to give up.
Last week, I posted something on fb that led to a flirt fest (it was...I clarified it with 3 people before I accepted that he was indeed flirting with me) and so I bit the bullet and sent him a message and asked if this dinner was happening or what. In my head, this was the last chance.
And he was into it. Apologetic about how life got away from us. Flirty. REALLY flirty...and then really honest. And I admitted to having liked him for a long time and the timing being horrible until now. And he admitted to the same thing...but now the timing was right, let's see.
But, he's out of town. And then I will be out of town.
And this was last Thursday and I kind of feel like if we just admitted that we liked each other, shouldn't like, maybe I have heard from you since last Thursday?
And so I'm in limbo again now but worse, because I LIKE HIM. Like, a lot. I'm just not sold on his feelings, no matter what he said the other night.
This is why I hate dating.
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