This is going to sound stupid or crazy...and if you don't know me well, or maybe didn't know me 'back then', you won't understand, but something amazing happened to me this past week. You know how sometimes you don't realize you were missing something until you have it again? Like wow, I forgot how good lobster is because I haven't eaten one lately? Like that. I literally forgot how much I love music, mostly because I was jaded by the musicians that were personally in my life. I just kind of shut it out. Nothing felt good, nothing felt worth my time or effort. Then, a few months ago I really started digging The Fray and The Script. I went and saw The Fray in concert and realized how much I'd missed live music. Then a few weeks later, my friend Laurice got tickets for KD Lang, who I had utterly 0 interest in...but I went anyways and lo and behold, I really enjoyed the show and her music. So I've been easing myself back into actually liking music again. And then last week, I randomly decided I needed to buy this cd I'd heard one song off of. So I did. And here's the thing...every single thing in my life this week has been better and brighter and I feel more like myself than I have all year. I'm more relaxed, more patient, have a renewed sense of purpose. I MISSED music so fucking much and I didn't even know it. I don't know...maybe it's just all these things aligning, but I haven't seen Stewart in 4 months...and a week from right now actually he'll finally be here...and i feel like an old friend joined me again last week...so everything I love is coming together. I could be reading too much into this, but all I know is that I feel just fucking GOOD.