If you are familiar with the story of Beaches, you know that it is the story of best friends Hillary and CeCe. Hillary grows up, gets married and becomes a mom. CeCe becomes a star that travels the world and gets herself into all sorts of crazy situations. At least, that's the gist of it. When I was younger and saw this movie with my best friend Heather, I absolutely thought I would grow up to be the Hillary. I mean, there was no question. So years later, as adults, when Heather referred to me one day as CeCe, I was like, "What?"

"You are the CeCe." she repeated. "I'm the Hillary and you are the CeCe." It floored me that that was how she viewed me and my life...as this jet-setting, crazy lifed, party girl. And, perhaps, in a way I was...although I never felt like it. I always felt like the Hillary, always assumed that that was where I would end up.

In the last year, I have transitioned out of CeCe for the most part. I like this transitioned me alot better. I like my life and the friends that have either come into it or transitioned with me much better. And last week, when I was watching tv something occured to me that made me laugh.

Do you watch The Middle? The Christmas episode last week was awesome...and I realized that I no longer imagined myself as the CeCe. I can almost feel that in a year or two, I am going to be the Frankie...the mom on that show. I mean, this might not seem like the best aspiration to anyone that has seen the show, but you know what? I like her. I like her life...and because of things that are going on, I think that it's a pretty realistic expectation. Not perfect, but real.

So, I thought I'd be the Hillary but I spent almost my whole adult life so far playing a part I was never meant for. I think I finally found a good role.