I wish the last week had never happened. I wish I could erase the whole fucking thing and go back and start over. But, of course, I can't. I felt so good and happy and settled...and now, this looming unease has settled over me and I don't like it. It's a horrible, bad feeling. I want to go back to FL right now, and I don't. I want to change things, and I don't. I, just confused... And it's a confusion that did not live in my heart just a short time ago. I wish I could make it go away.